christmas is in 6 days!!! yay!

ok so I know God will never give me more than I can handle...but I'm realizing more and more every day that the heart is such a fragile thing...and sometimes I think mine is going to go through so much and be broken so many times that it won't be able to mend...Hope is a hard thing to keep after a while once you feel like you've finally found a silver lining but then the clouds come back again...The waiting and confusion just gets to me everynow and then...Don't get me wrong, I know God knows what He's doing, and I still completly trust Him! it just gets hard sometimes and I get fed up with the crap and disapointments...anyways, Just some stuff I've been dealing with lately...